Or so I used to think.
Earlier this morning I was talking to God. And in typical fashion when I was discussing my financial needs with Him, I was saying to God, just get me to “Here.”
This year has been, from a business stand point anyway, the roughest I have ever had. I started in real estate 15 years ago, and I have never had a tougher year in this industry. You know the kind, one step forward two back. So I am praying about the things I need to cover expense wise, new tires, insurance, marketing costs and a handful of other things. I had added up the dollar amount and was praying to God just get me to here. When I realized, then what? Am I really so bold as to think I could actually handle it from there?
How ridiculous it seems now just a few hours later. To say to God “Just get me to the edge of the Promised Land and I will do the rest.” Only to realize then what? I can’t do it on my own. Just look at my life and it becomes obvious.
Doing the right things may not be enough.
I can do all the “right” things, and usually do. Plan, set goals, do the work (lots of it), but without God’s blessing, I am going to if not fail, at least struggle mightily. Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying don’t try. I am saying that realizing my utter and obsolete dependence on God is not just for today. I am going to have to continue to rely on God. Probably more so when things are going great, then during the struggle.
When work is not going well, or anything else for that matter, it’s easy to rely and trust in God, at least for me. But when things are going well how easy it becomes to say “Look how great I am”, or “Look at what I’ve done” or to even say to God “I’ve got it from here.”
Oh the arrogance. Guess that’s what I get for praying for a humble heart. God pointing out where I am arrogant and powerless all at the same time. Not at all the type of wisdom I was looking for, but I guess God doesn’t always give us what we want, but he does always supply our need.
Has God ever given you what you need, even if it wasn’t what you wanted?