Who am I to expect more?
Ask – sure
Work for – of course
How dare I. How presumptuous of me to expect anything beyond the grace of God. Even expecting that seems, as I am writing this, to be the pinnacle of arrogance.
Max Lucado in his book “In the Grip of Grace.” Tells the story about praising God for saving his daughter from drowning. “As clearly as if God himself were speaking, this question came to mind: Would I be less wonderful had I let her drown?” I have to admit I probably would scream YES, yes you would be less wonderful.
What is the right perspective?
Right now I do not have the perspective to even really know what is good for me. Yet I actually try to make that decision. Should I keep working to build a business that is struggling? What about being single, when not only do I not really want to be, after all didn’t God say “It is not good that the man should be alone.” Yet if I was married I don’t see how I could work full-time(and then some), teach a couple of small-group classes, write this blog, study trying to better understand God, and love a wife as Christ loves the church.
My humanity, my desires, seem in conflict with my Christian ethics, my belief that God’s best is best. Knowing that I just don’t have the wisdom to make the call, doesn’t necessarily make it easier, but it does make it do-able.
I may not have the answers, but I do know the one who does.
Now if I would just be ok with that.