Do I focus too much on the knowing, the need to know. Rather then believe, and let God be God, accepting that some of his workings are beyond my comprehension. Or should I trust what I do not fully understand while seeking knowledge and wisdom. Search for truth, and understanding, believing that God wants to be known, or else he would not have made himself known in even an infinitesimally small way. Which comes first, believing God or knowing God?
Faith ain’t always easy
Any of you who know me, know that I do not see Christianity as being dependent on blind faith. I see God as one who has shown himself over and over again to man, and yes to me personally, tho before you get the wrong idea, no I have never had a vision, a dream or even a burning bush. Still I find myself focusing on trying to know the why and the what of God. Why are things in my life the way they are? What is God trying to show or teach me? But what if it is not about me?
Max Lucado has a great book “It’s not about me
“. Sometimes this book is a bit hard to read, at least for me. Not because it is too deep or theological but because of what it makes me face. One of the things Mr. Lucado talks about is the story of Job, yes that Job. He points out that after all that Job goes thru and endures, loss of family, wealth, health. When God comes and speaks to Job, and restores everything and more to him, God never tells him the why. God doesn’t ease Job’s
mind about the why. God doesn’t tell Job, “Look people will be studying your life, and using it for an example for 5,000 years”
No my trials and issues are NOTHING like Job’s
Would it have made a difference to Job? I don’t know. I do know that sometimes I don’t get to know the why. Maybe that’s just as well. I can’t speak for you but if God came and told me. “I know this is tough but someone reading this 20 years from now half a world away is going to make it through a hard time because of this.” My first thought would probably be really, you can’t find someone else to use as an example?
I’m not one for blind faith, and even tho this might seem like what I am talking about having, it is not. I have faith because God has been faithful. God has done things in my past that make it seem realistic that he knows what he is doing. Even when I don’t.
What about you? Do you find God wanting you to know him or trust him more?