So the other day my mind started going places I really don’t want it to go. To a life I used to live, and unfortunately with considerable zeal, & I find myself wondering why. That life, that old me I gave up, turned away from, and made a vow to never return. No I didn’t follow thru on the thoughts but only because of the grace of God, not to mention his strength/mercy.
Do you ever wonder if “Christian Living” is even possible?
I’m thinking is it any wonder that so many that are held up as leaders of spiritual matters fail (some not just falling but jumping off the cliff). Jesus said plainly that if a man even lusts after a woman he has already sinned, yet how many laughed at former President Carter over his confession of that very same sin. Do we think Jesus was joking? I cannot speak for anyone else if for no other reason than the simple fact that I cannot know your heart or your mind. But for me I will take it literally and believe God meant it.
Is living a life for Christ too much to ask?
So can I be free of that? This sin of thought. I don’t know but it seems that God would not make us in such a way that sin can not be conquered. After all how many times does Peter, Paul and others write that sin “HAS” been conquered. Notice they did not say could but has. So thru the power of God and by the holy spirit living within me it is possible. And yet even Paul, old camel knees, speaks to doing what he doesn’t want to do and not doing that he wants to. Not an easy path, this Christian life I’ve chosen, but what’s the alternative?
I suppose I could walk away from God, and the church but then what? As the philosopher once said, “The problem with knowing a thing is that once you know it, you can’t un-know it”. I could pretend I suppose, but what good would that do? What about you, do you sometimes wish you didn’t know what you should do? Maybe thinking it would have been easier being left in ignorance?
Me either but some days I do have to take a step back, take a deep breath, and then push forward. Usually changing location and a lot of prayer helps. Other days I find myself not really wanting to avoid my old self. “Should we continue in sin that grace may abound? God forbid.” Romans 6:1-2.
When your on overload and ready to give up what do you do? Is it getting better, or do you stop and wonder?